I wrote the following in my journal today and I thought I would share today’s insight. Journaling has been such a therapeutic tool for me on my own personal healing journey. It allows me to zoom out of the tunnel vision we so often get accustom to, but that tunnel vision makes you blind to all the beauty, love, and opportunities all around you!

”For me healing has come in stages. I did not wake up one morning enlightened and fully healed from my past wounds.

Instead, I slowly and with divine intention allowed my authentic self to come to the surface. It was as if I acclimatized my ego or who I thought “I was,” to my true, authentic self. As if I was climbing a mountain and I was slowly exposing my ego to my truest self.

For the past two years I have been slowly climbing this mountain. Each day I do my best, and as I continue to show up for me my best gets better, and better, and better.

I have been easing myself to heal and to grow at my own pace. For me, I had to slowly accept that big chunks of who I thought I was had to die, they had to wither away to make room for my authentic self to be fully present.

Your ego and your authentic self cannot coexist at the same time.

You can oscillate back and forth between the two, but they cannot be present in the same moment. I had to, and often still do, have to choose authenticity over the familiar. I have to let go of the ego in order for me to feel peace, joy, true belonging and love.

I have been so conditioned to be what I thought everyone else wanted me to be that I lost my way. I didn’t even know who Krissy was for so long. I truly didn’t even know ME. As I heal and love myself more and more each day my authentic self reveals itself to me. I am learning who I am each day in small bite sized pieces.

Moreover, I have to remind myself often that the ego is not some ugly or evil side of me, but it is in fact, the child side of me. It is my younger self that built up walls, flimsy as those walls were, and put on masks in order to feel safe and protected and “connected”.

Those walls and those masks did serve me at some point in my life. They allowed me to live. However, the walls and masks and old worn out patterns of thinking, the fear and lack mindsets are no longer serving my highest, authentic self.

Now that I know better, I do better.

Often, in my minds eye I give my younger self a big hug, I let her know that she is safe with me. That she no longer has to fight, chase and beg. No, she can simply BE. All she has to do is be and she will attract all that is meant for her, because what is meant for me will find its way to me.

I remind myself also that I do not have to fight for my authentic self to shine, I simply let her be. I allow my inner light to shine out like a lighthouse.

That light shines more often and brighter each day, each moment I choose to be fully me, fully present. This choice is a vote towards my authentic self. As I write this I am occasionally looking at a framed picture of my younger self. I remind myself that that child was always enough, safe, and lovable. And that I am that person, and I am enough, safe, and loved.”

So as you embark on your own personal healing journey let me remind you to heal and grow at your own pace.

Ease into this beautiful journey. It isn’t always easy. You may lose friends or people closest to you, because they are comfortable with your discomfort. You have allowed them to treat you a certain way for so long and when you start to set up boundaries and introduce them to your truest self they may need time to mourn the loss of who they thought you were. Some may not want to get to know the real, authentic you, and that can hurt, and that’s okay. Nothing hurts more, though, than staying small and abandoning yourself so that others won’t feel insecure around you.

Be brave. Chose you. Beautiful things happen when you shine your authentic light out onto the world. You ATTRACT your tribe, and you attract opportunities and abundance simply by being the beautiful YOU that you were always meant to be.

The old me would never have been this vulnerable and honest. I would have never posted this a year ago. Gosh no! I feared this vulnerability and I feared showing the world my authentic self, because at one point in my life being authentic was not accepted and I needed to be accepted to survive.

I choose bravery in this next chapter of my life though. A chapter titled, “thriving in authenticity and abundance.” I choose to be me for me. I also believe though that the world deserves to know the authentic Krissy. She is kind, she is brave, she is passionate, she is confident, she is divine, she is just getting started, and she is more than enough ✨🩶.

In summary…

I hope you enjoyed what a journal entry for me looks like. Journaling has been a powerful tool for my personal healing journey as it allows me to zoom out of the conditioning and embrace the beauty, love, and opportunities that life has to offer. Healing comes in stages though, as the authentic self gradually emerges, it sheds the layers of the conditioned self and the ego. Healing and growth should occur at your own pace. By letting go of old patterns of thinking and masks, and embracing authenticity, you can find peace, joy, belonging, and love. It may be challenging, and relationships may change, but choosing to be brave and shine your authentic light onto the world attracts the right tribe and opportunities. Embracing vulnerability and stepping into authenticity is a courageous choice that leads to thriving and abundance in all areas of your life. The world deserves to know and experience your true self.

So I invite you to take small steps each day towards authenticity. This choice starts a powerful journey of self-discovery. So, be brave, choose yourself, and let your light shine bright. I believe in you and I can’t wait to witness your authentic glow!

✨ I love you, and I am so proud of you! ✨

🤍Love, Coach Krissy.🤍